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happiest birthday ever.
really i swear.

i don't know how to express my feeling with words. but you guys can feel it right?
20th, the stage where i no longer belong to teenager.
it's like in between teenager and adults.
you know at the grey part.
i'm like fucking old.
idk, im 20 and im still in pursuing my diploma.

nevermind, i'm happy.
REALLY.

<3 ALL MY FRIENDS.
ESP YOU KNOW WHO!!

this week has been a bitch to me.
yea the entire week besides tuesday.
cause Tuesday is Ahwan's bd and i didn't return to the lab.

the feeling is like shit, seriously.
I didn't want to express myself this way, but i can't think of other solution.
I know im kinda mean to ignore and treat you two coldly.
but i think it's time you guys should reflect about it.

this is actually the first time i'm really pissed with one of you.
When you are complaining to me about how your friends in your class treats you, i wanted to share my friends with you, i even risked my own friendship just to make sure that you are not alone.
now, you know what? i think everything has got it's reason to happen.
there is a reason why your classmates is treating you this way, somehow, you deserve it.

really, i feel that i'm being used by you guys.
you guys don't even treasure my friendship isn't it?
i'm like a spare tire huh?
taking me for granted?
talk to me nicely when you needed a grouping, talk to me nicely when you guys are in good condition

btw, i'm not that busybody that is so interested with your r/s
your gf wants to complain to me, by all means i listen because she is my friend.
you don't like it, go get a life.
i went out to see not because i care, because i'm afraid you will hit her again, c'mon u have tons of bad records already. don't feel proud of yourself for hitting a girl for whatever excuses you had.
Hero eh?

anyway, things are better now.
But my friendship with both of you will never be the same again.
i just have another 63 days to go, after this semester ends, good luck.

I knew it was a mistake in the beginning, i chose to step in this shit, i've no one to blame.
i just hope you guys at least respect me, don't make me feel like an ass when im covering up and tolerating. Seriously.

Just a random thought,
sent mav home, i was day dreaming, and thinking of a lot of random stuff in my mind.

I've changed, like almost 6 years ago.
I've totally changed into another person, without you around.
I want you to know I've changed, this is a statement.
I've turned into a better person.

Getting into R/S is troublesome.
I wanna stay single but enjoy the flings around me.
Whats wrong with that?