only when i realise, the ugly side of human nature is really ugly
Friday, January 29, 2010
8:00 PM
really a very hectic and busy semester for us, well, alot of things has been done! (: thank god!
hand in my comprog project ler although there are afew errors.. haha teacher still ask why i didnt run my programme before showing him.. i forget mahh.. but overall its okay! he say as long as i hand in the correct hardcopy for him he will pull up my marks! he asked alot of question lor.. anyway i managed to answer them (: so now comprog i hand in my hard copy next tue i dun have to attend anymore!! i still got a feeling comprog will be the subject that pull down my GPA this time sia.. i aim quite high lehh..
forget it! i gotta study very hard for main exam! i cannot let biochem and comprog pull my gpa down sia! i will really cry hard! I SUPER STRESS NOW.. biochem quiz next week! OMG i hate all BIO-RELATED SUB! always pull my marks down! ALOT LOR! not abit! i can score about the same for other sub with my friends.. but come to bichem.. WALAO EH, they A, i like max B? always alot of difference de..
ARUGGGG.. and edevckt also.. i dunwan to think sia.. think ler i sad.. but im glad that i've got good lab teacher that talk to me.. i was really surprise that he say this lahh.. whatever he say really encourage me alot alot.. i really wanna do well in the mini project.. hopefuly will pull up scores..
anyway, very worried for my didi.. he got into Anderson JC. but he dont like.. first day of orientation he went, left early 2nd day which was yesterday he text me at about 9+, he said he hate the school,he is going to pon school till he transfer to another school.. so he didnt go school.. had a huge fight with my uncle in the morning for not going to school.. boys at this age is rebellious lahh.. but i dunno whats with AJ that he hate so much.. somemore so near our homes.. easier for me to find him also.. he appeal for ny,sa and nj i think.. he really rather get into lousier sch, further ones, than AJ.. still talking to him.. he even say he rather commit suicide than going to AJ.. walao eh got so serious meh.. appealing fail how.. private school mehh? WORRIED.WORRIED.WORRIED.
yesterday is dar's birthday! send a message and she say she thought i forget abt it..
another thing is regarding my best friend.. i can tell he's still down.. but i can't do anything....... i feel so lousy.. feel so useless..
watch tv yesterday.. and i teared... i seldom get so emotional.. i saw a dog... he can't walk due to an accident.. his front legs were broken, thus, being cut off.. his determination of surviving is strong.. he is now able to walk with 2 legs.. but he often fell... i got so touch and sad that i actually teared infront of the TV...
i wan to close my eye and survive through these 2 weeks, then home sweet home.. although i gotta mug and mug and mug for my main exam! it really feel better at home! only think i scared i cant concentrate.. u know.. i wan to go out.. i wan to accompany mom for facial, buying cloth with ahma,driving out with daddy. my skills still gotta improve..
i tell mama i grow up le, i donwant angbao money this year.. but im thinking.. I FEEL LIKE CHANGING CAR.. ok,im contradicting.. nvm..
preparing to go out soon~
i realized, the ugly side of human nature is really ugly... we should learn to admit mistakes, not pushing it to others instead. put ourselves into other's shoe..
HEATSTROKE+SUNBURNT!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
4:15 AM
Went fishing with 03 peeps ytd after school.. somehow wanna relief my stress.. at bedok jetty at about 1+.. the sun is WOW! and guess what we dabao there... FISH MEAT BEEHOON. walao eh i regret sia! under that heat eat that.. WALAO EH..
it was really fun lahh... swing even fish dao crab and sotong egg? LOL and some dead corals.. haha..
me, mav, dhashini and jun ru left at 5.. i drop them at some bus stop and then cab all the way home.. mom saw me and SCREAM! why u tanned until like that!! why become so red! i so tired that i dunno how to answer her sia.. just walk into the room and bathe.. after that.. while i use towel to wipe my body dry... I feel some kind of sharp pain.. then wipe my face.. WALAO EH PAIN UNTIL LIKE KNN @q%$w&$^$*&^w$%&*&(*&e%wew3Q4 then headache and no energy.. mom say dio heatstroke.. had scrape therapy.. 刮痧(gua sha) in chinese.. my back now go nice "tatto" lor.. lol..
anyway.. so bored now adays.. stress and stress and stress... like my life is damn meaningless..
i need to learn to save money, i need to learn to be thrifty.. that day when me and ahwan was on our way home.. she told me she very look forward for the coming chinese new year celebration.. because all the relative will gather at her grandma house, and the whole atmosphere is like very lively and fun lor.. catch up with the cousins and so on.. but frankly speaking.. i dont really like new year celebration.. firstly i dont have relatives gathering at grandma's place. my grandma stays with me, one and only. relatives are at taiwan, dont expect me to go back. i guess i dont like chinese new year celebration is because all i see is parents spending money nonstop. at malaysia, pubs during new year is either closed or be mentally prepared to loss money. all the PRs,singers, DJ, bartenders, managers went back to hometown for their new year. who work sia? then they have afew pubs, 4 handphone shops, flowershop, tidbits and grocery tradings.. over 150 workers.. all i see is,give angbao,boxes and boxes of oranges.. year end dinners leh.. walao.. so i dont like new year.. i even told mom i dunwan to get ang bo money this year.. dunno.. last time me and mich will like start discussing how much shud we ask from them 2 weeks before new year.. eh last year is 1k hor,so this year 1.5k la.. but when i say i dunwan angbao money this year.. michelle was like, dont fake.. and mom was like.. reveal ur true colors! what u wan? lv bags? new camera? walao eh i might be little bit pampered.. but im definitely not those bloody spoilt brad..(i think)
im on first mask now.. purifiying.. later second one.. whitening..
this few days thought of alot of things.. only guilty people will go around explaining and talk nonsense.. i dont think i have done anything wrong to you.. dont expect me to make any explanation. i have a clear conscience. as i said, ure main problem is that you always think that is others let you down, others fault. you never think of if are responsible for any fault or not. that is ur main problem, think. why will all this happen. dont always push the blames to others and think that you are always right.
nevermind it doesnt affect me,i dont give a damn. just that my face is really red now and its very pain la! mask on even more pain! okay.. nights readers! (:
mentally prepared..
Saturday, January 16, 2010
10:26 PM
today is the last day of free week.. tmr onwards will be, BUSY, STRESS, TIRED.. anyway i gotta start my revision later on..
friday dismiss at 12.. had group discussion with peeps in the lib project room.. after that about 2 left with mav and went amk hub for PL. not paya lebar, is PEPPER LUNCH.. had my first meal at 4pm. power? Both of us are like STARVING. standard.. curry beef rice.. after that went to walk around amk hub with her.. cuz was like bloated la.. passed by g2000, bought one smart casual shirt for yang,wanted to buy more, but u know,ran out of size.. saw handsome blazer..wanted to get for him too.. well..bo size.. at night pass to him.. his attending wedding dinner tonight.. and he say he is wearing that! LOL.. my brother is getting more and more handsome! anyway his busy life gonna start la.. he chose jc path.. good for him, cuz he is not suitable for poly.. Not that mature I guess at least jc got teacher pushing them..
so tired laa.. on fb, saw those pic that they had fun over there.. so sad la.. mom was busy.. she used to call me afew times everyday.. this few days either i call back, she say busy at the moment, get me to me soon.. then never get back lor.. i think she is kinda irritating last time.. but now that she dont call.. i miss her lor.. then thurs in sch she suddenly msg me and ask if i ate already WA I GOT SO EXCITED AND SHOW MY FRIEND THE MESSAGE! okay. im childish... went out for dinner ytd with horse.. wanted to buy prawns back.. SUPERMARKET CLOSED. KNN.. okay.. 3pm start revision!
BYE READERS!
PS:/ i think its time i move on.. the fact that you ALREADY left and WILL NOT return.. no point.. i know what ure thinking.. i've cling on to you too long.. i will study hard.. hopefully, we'll be able to meet 3 years later..
BUSY-
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
7:21 AM
so tired.. really.. mentally and physically.. yea..
briefly update about this week, next week, the week after next week and the last week of the sem before study week..
This week:monday 11/01 = PSPS presentation tuesday = suppose to be 8-6 for me, but i woke up late.. went for 1pm onwards de class.. home at like 10? cuz i waited for cw till her cds end... do my comprog flowchart till like 12? went down for a walk.. slept at 2am. wednesday = submission of flowchart and comprog assignment+quiz! stress like hell thursday = biochemistry practise lab, 9-6 again. friday =TGIF! saturday = STUDY AND STUDY FOR UPCOMING QUIZES AND TEST sunday = same as above
next week: monday 18/01 = edevckt lab test, PSPS project report submission tuesday = otcm quiz, lesson from 8-6! wednesday = comprog lab test (KNN LA) thursday = BIOCHEMISTRY LAB TEST (KNN AGAIN) friday = emaths2QUIZ 2 saturday = STUDY AND STUDY FOR UPCOMING QUIZES AND TEST sunday = same as above
the week after next week:monday 25/01 = normal day, lesson 9-5 tuesday = dfund 2 quiz! COMPROG JAVA CODE! lesson from 8-6! wednesday = hopefully no need to do anything.. thursday = edevckt quiz! friday =TGIF! saturday = STUDY AND STUDY FOR UPCOMING QUIZES AND TEST sunday = same as above
the week of next next week: monday 1/02 = normal day 9-5 tuesday = go thru dfund quiz result wednesday = Hopefully nothing on! thursday = dfund lab test! friday = biochemistry quiz saturday = STUDY AND STUDY FOR UPCOMING QUIZES AND TEST sunday = same as above
conclusion: STRESS LA!
OMG, JAN 11 ALREADY!
Monday, January 11, 2010
6:45 AM
so Olevel result release!! my beloved brother score a 9POINT L1R5 RAW! okay, he's rather dumb la! wasted! cause his humans got a bloody B4! if not!!! 6A1s,1A2,1B4! L1B4 IS 5 after deducting for L1B4 is 3, and L1R5 is 7 WELL DONE MY LOVE! i got so nervous this morning! i know he will do well for sure, i mean not like me la so slack he did alot of practise since the start of his sec4 life, and he work very hard! see, his hard work pay off! god bless!
OMG i got so happy in the school today when he msged me! then his dad( my god dad) msg me i like spread to the whole class HEY MY BRO SCORE 9POINT RAW FOR L1R5! then faris disturb and ask mine! hmm!
wanted to celebrate with him tonight at his place.. STUPID BOY GO CHALET, PANGSEH HIS BELOVED SISTERS ~!!!! i feel so excited! anyway, today psps presentation. everything was expected. btw, i went to sign up a mobile broadband because my hse internet suck big time and i couldnt send file to cw. okay! 7.2mpbs offer only 35 per month.. worth it laa..
someone just cannot shut her bloody mouth sia... i wear what also wan to comment.. think i dunno is it.. bloody hell..
forget it! i love my bro! im happy! LOVE YOU JESUS!
happy new year!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
6:26 AM
okay. was back yesterday.. walao.. things i can never imagine happened. like GG! firstly, i skipped school on monday and tue, so i had a really long weekend, chiong finish my medical kit for otcm during the long weekends.
who say staying alone without parents is cool and fun?? like shit i tell u. i got to eat outside almost every meal, even if eat at home is instant noodle, sometime lazy or no time to buy groceries. no fruits. eat delievery, extremely UNHEALTHY! i got to pay ALL the bills by urself. no matter how busy u are, u gotta find time, go to axs machine, sort out the total balance, tell ur mother. then pay them. and U ALWAYS GOT SO BUSY, THEN FORGET, then like me lor, forget to pay before i left this time! come back home. WALAO KENA CUT OFF! thank goodness i've got nice god dad to fetch me to his place! home now..
ANYWAY, got back my laptop.. harddisk die! but forget to tell the technician to buy 320hdd.. he put smaller ones.. nvm.. using windows7 now! BUT CANT USE MSN, cuuz mine is pirated one haven upgrade to new one.
skipped biochem lec today to makan with the girls and boys. then went to free access lab, wanna finish up my dfund project. didnt do anything lor.. talk and talk and talk.. i haven unpack my luggage yet sia.. room is in a total mess! time for bed now.. early lesson tmr.. long day again.. will update soon (:
PS/: to someone WILL YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH FOR LIKE, AT LEAST ONE DAY?? HATE YOU LA BLOODY BITCH
